Saturday, November 29, 2008

23rd?

its hitting dec soon,

time to go clubbing/pubbing.

to shed the weight of people's view. and live like a normal 23 year old.

wonder hows a normal 23year old's life like...

avn

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Update

Today got poked by a fellow colleague in a course.

I was stating a fact which is a norm in Singapore's wasteful culture.
She shot me, "whatever happen to ethics?".
Of course with her head down and a really tame voice.
:D think she knew that it was a rebuttal, and did not want to start unnecessary conversations la. :D

anyway, it reminds me of the point i mention in my previous post.
Its about
3- the need to spent time and be involved in-order to truly understand and be willing to love a person.


had worked with her before. On really short accounts.
Actually I meant, Had appointed her tasks to do before.
not work with her. Cos what the heck,
she was the one who had left me with tons of things to cover up for her before. :/
Yup, I was very upset about that back then.

Think thats how it is, didnt work, spend long enough hours with her before, and these past 3 days, been working around her, not with her. Could sense her own agenda.
Maybe I had mine too.

But it came to a point that I felt serving was a nuisance to her.
My school was hosting a science course, I was serving drinks. all of the tables occupied by other schools have mineral water. I put some on our table as well in-cases my colleagues would need them. I felt it was distracting my view, so I mention to that colleague to help me shift it forward.
"We have our own bottles, why do you need to get all these"
and she didnt move it still, even after i tried and it toppled over, still she didnt move it.

Guess these are really small items that people might just think that Im too sensitive. But well, to me it meant alot. Cos however we react towards situation, it always tells something about our character.

-

Coming back to the point of spending time to know hence having the ability to love someone,

Had an ex cell member, before being together with her in the same cellgroup, never felt the ability to love her, interact and relate to her bcos she was different. After being in the same cell, and now having to leave the cell, just began to understand her so much more as a person, see and understood the innocence, her character. Really draws out the willingness of within to invest more in her life.

This other cell member. Always failed to relate to her no matter how much our routines might intertwine. its just Dont know how to, not dont have the chance or dont want to. is Dont know how to.
through this Asia Conference, I was given the opportunity to spend a little more time with her.
Learnt that she has her soft, girl and relate-able side as well, that there are certain traits that would attract me to want to spend a little more time with her.

and as the 2 ladies above draws out,
one is an ex-cell member whom i use to reject but felt moved bcos of the opportunity to spend more time with her.
the other whom i simply dont know how to but has become able to bcos of the situations that brought us together.

Truly its:
3- the need to spent time and be involved in-order to truly understand and be willing to love a person.

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Regards this colleague, nah, not gonna do anything about it, cos its not called for.
Perhaps i've to look at it as shes been horribly mistreated by a big shot in school and it builds up the unhappiness which accounts for the grumpiness within ba.
Hmmm... I know, need to start blessing her... :)
Cos you can bless without loving but you cant love without blessing.
:D

Think its bcos we had already 3 straight days of course and 2 more days to go ba.
Been stoning since the course ended each day.

And again, i'm not any better, looking towards more opportunity to grow.

Felt very motivated to close the blog, cos im like no time to blog de...
sorry ar people...

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010

Monday, November 24, 2008

AC, update

Hello~!

I;m back from Not just Asia Conference,
:D

Still on course ar,
so much is left to be blogged. :D

my work table in school is still not done up yet, so blogging is still not my priority :X

anyway,
regards Asia Conference,

3 things that impacted me.

1 - the offerings were collected not to cover the cost. But to give. Bcos it is more blessed to give then to receive.
2- so much about binding and reaching out. Its all in the culture. if you can uproot it, there is so much more that can be changed.
3- the need to spent time and be involved in-order to truly understand and be willing to love a person.

:)

Whats yours?

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Was put in-charge with 2 of my other colleagues for a science course today.
A teacher came up to me and told me that her name was not on the register list with super big eyes. You know those very offensive kind. Like staring you down like that? and the tone of her voice.
Goodness.
I wasnt sure, so I ask, is your school in the list. So she repeated herself again, with that bulging eyes and super forceful and basically unkind tone of voice.

Goes to remind myself man.
Its like, we are both teachers, you dont have to be so mean. like its against the law to not have your name inside.
HaiyO!

I pray that I'll never never never never have that kind of eyes and that kind of tone of voice or even to address anyone in that manner.
Ridiculous.
and Offensive.

Oh Hallelujah!

I'm not surprise if her relationship with her fellow colleagues are not well either.

-_-"

Got to be mindful of myself.

Hallelujah!

Be bless
Love,
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

update

Asia Conference!!!


*busy* *busy* *busy*

Shall post up pictures of what I wore and the understandings that I receive when Im back.
updates:


Met Jaclyn Tay, did a Blood Test with healthclub.com
there is blood clot in my just one drop of blood. :D


Try to spot the clot in the picture. :D not on the big big screen.
Tilt your head. :D I've gone red for the conference~
:D
Be Bless
Love,
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Review

Hmm...

next post, need to review all my previous entries le...
cos i just got reminded this morning,

Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.

:D

Be Bless
Love
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010

When?

:) just got reminded, when I get attached, and the person ask me
"when did you start liking me?"

I shall answer him... Today!
091108

:D

Oh so romantic~

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010

Saturday, November 8, 2008

since when

not sure since when...

I started biting my fingernails when im thinking...
I started thinking it is alright to rest when im not feeling well.
I started more involved with the current cellgroup
I started to run out of ideas for what to wear for choir
I started missing...
I started to change

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Sis O_O

O_O

My sister got proposed to. O_O

Goodness Gracious Me!

Oki, nothing fascinating, just part and parcel of life.

Actually why am I posting this up,

cos i just came to an understanding.

She broke off with a dated more than 10yrs guy.
then got attached to this new guy. They are together for less than 2years?

Guess its all about the timing ba.
Got to grab that right girl. Doesnt have to be perfect,
just the right girl will do.
Then when it hits the right age,
get on the knees and proposal.

Live well, try not to get unto each other's toes, be nice to each other, try to complement each other. Live with each other.
All these dont need Long term preparation.
All these will be sorted out when the coming together starts. Kind of like experience comes with the living.

:)

guess thats one of the good excuse for girls to not get attached early. :D

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010

Update~

Hi all~

so sorry hadnt been updating my blog.

:D been busy la...

ANyway, went to visit the doctors today, like finally. :D
Got an MC for today as well, had lots of rest neh,
Throat inflamation and slight flu.
Been scheduled for 2 ultrascans... Hmm...

Long long way to go.

Got some entries that I wanted to post, hadnt had the time, shall post up some simple stuff first ba~

Was working at my desk when I noticed something staring at me...




:D cute right, happened to be directly above my laptop. Yup, thats the laptop im using now, brought the laptop home to work on.

:D
My cosy corner is still as cosy as ever, maybe with a little addition of flowers due to the 2 Teachers day that just past ba.
But I'm still waiting for flowers to be delivered to school for me. :D
Did you read the recent article on The New Paper?
Teacher posting up Pictures of herself on Micro-Bikini for an online contest. Been taken down because of her occupation.
Kind of agree with what one of the respondant said in her respond.
If we think not showing such stuff is to the benefits of the younger generations, then we'll not be grooming leaders of the new generation, but rather cupcakes maybe.
Think that kind of goes along with what Pastor said about Innocence is not equal to Virtue.
:)
then again, if we daringly throw it in the face and let them swim, wouldnt it be more harmful then benefit?
Think our Sexual education needs to be enhance, and much has to be prayed for about our children's self-control.
I support Personal life!
I wanna go for Tattoo. :D
*Amanda has just successfully dumped herself into hot soup*
:D
Much much more to come~
Be Bless,
Love
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010
P/s: Looking forward to meeting my 2 darlings again