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My blog's my mummy, not as in real mummy in any sense, just a comfort name.

Mummy...
I'm so tired and upset...
Its so unfair!

This sept Holiday, I really really want to go on a holiday.
Call me silly, but I think I really deserve a break after this first semester.
I know I am capable, but I dont think the kind of workload I am carrying is really how it is suppose to be.

Go with friends, Its difficult to co-ordinate dates.
Go alone, daddy dont allow.

Its so unfair!



I love me mummy... what can I do?

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And then the logical mind will tell me these:
What's your problem. Will you die not going on a holiday?
What is fair if it is according to your standards.
Like secretly allowing ur tears to drop will help.

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Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

But God

Now I see why and now I see how.
Just happened to be reminded of me apologizing to a fellow colleague because of my attitude.
Had a flash back of what another colleague said to me when she was trying to get points back from me.

I saw just how it was. How important it is to be humble, letting ur words be few, and having the ability to apologize.
Not because someone has corrected you and it is expected of you to apologize,

But being different, having the ability to apologize, what would seem to be as something that pride would not allow.

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CA Period now. Marking has driven me to the brim.
Exhibitions coming up.
Brownie Revel coming up.
all within this 2 weeks.

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Made a decision to skip Brownie induction last saturday.
Was very motivated not to go for sunday service since I've attended the Saturday one.
But I know that is not how it is suppose to be. So I went.
Receiving and letting Love flow through me.
The way to break through to the next level is by forgiving and being good to the people you hated the most.
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When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
Ye though I walk through the valley of shadow of death, I will fear no evil. For you are with me, your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Fear not for I am with you.
And my Lord will meet all your needs according to glorious riches by Christ Jesus.
I am more than a Conquerer in Christ.
Because He who is in me is greater than he who is out there in the world.

Come to me you who are weary and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Learn from me, for my yoke is easy my burden is light.

But God!
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There is a need to learn to work in and by the Spirit, Just as related by Kathryn Kuman and the author of a book - See Drawing Near by John Bevere.

Letting God going before me, moving according to His will.
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Addressed myself last night, so Glad I did. :) God is good!
I'm a nice girl, maybe thats why.
I Love Me! :)
Looks like there are plenty of guys that will be like him, just got to learn to sit on it. :)
Amanda Val, Thats my name.

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Hallelujah!

God is Good!

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

reflection

Was just watching tv
wah... so much reflection...

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help even though she insist she didnt want.
weak though there is much strength.
tried all his might to protect her. - Thats falling in love.

The beauty of the simple-ness that comes with it.
Being drunk, not having to care about the consequences.

Him having the ability to, the smart-ness

first time encounter,
hence didnt know how to handle,
misdirected attention.

The struggle to know and handle the difference.

the tears that filled the eyes. the tears that slipped down the cheek accidently...
She was hurt again... by someone who least wanted to hurt her. Even deeper than ever before...
That very moment the eyes met... the feelings come rushing back, the tears comes swooning to the eyes.
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:D

Dunno if it stirs something up in u
:D

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

blined

I am blinded...

its a crazy week ahead...

today finally did something that I normally wouldnt have done.
I skipped the Brownie induction program.
Needed that rest so much...

the best time to rest is before the need to rest...

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

why?

Just received a post from a photo studio... Suppose to be my Graduation photo one...



but... its not me lei...
so sad...
emailed them, hope and pray hard that they will someway somehow send me the photograph of me that was taken the other day.

it was just this morning when I received the call to began to grow the Fear of the Lord.
To learn more about drawing the line, Respecting God as God, and not treating Him as a friend, treating Him for granted...

Goodness...
Better start fasting...

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

focus

An hour ago, I was moving the tables and chairs in my classroom, moving cupboards around and all that in preparation for Pri 6 PSLE oral,

2 hours later I am in a meeting room marking my CA papers...

:D

my eyes are half open.
I am looking forward to tomorrow still.

Got to change my focus.

Because whatever that gets my attention gets me...

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

1am online

:) its almost 1am and I am online. :D
its been so long since this happened.

:) took a nap just now, wake up around 10+ almost 11,
It was my brother's birthday... *madness* cos i forgot about it like totally...
nvm, kind of like already know what he wants and what i'm getting him, so its a small issue after all.
Wanted to get him a PSP, but he prefers a HP... Hmm... see how la.

Did marking... from 11+ till now.
They call me a high-flyer, I call myself a mind-less worker.
reach school before sun-rise,
leave school almost at sun-set.
7th week into teaching and i'm holding positions tt beginning teachers doesnt hold...

then again, thats very me la huh, esp when I am focused.
Job focuse now, so if you hear rumor that i'm in a relationship or something, just open up your eyes. :D
I may speak as though I am, talking about emotions and all that, but it doesnt mean it is ya? :) this is my blog, its where i address myself.

Was just talking to a friend, and a very interesting truth came forth.
It certainly is "Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks"
My intention was not to teach, but to deal with people.
:D

Its as though that the marking has taken away the joy of dealing with the kids.

Am so not happy with my Knowledge of English. :/
shall work on it.

busy busy week ahead, like it has always been.

But the good news is! Joyce Meyer is Coming!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! Its time for discipleship again! :D
So bless!

Am starting my Red Pen journey again, this time on NLT version.
Its a good feeling actually. Use to refer to the original KJV text to highlight the words of Christ in Red, now I'm drawing them out on my own.
Rivers of living water, understanding the mind of Christ. I pray for revelations.
God is Good~


Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda