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Had wanted to go to Sentosa one, but cant seem to sleep last night. Don't know why.
Went to bed at 10pm+ woke up at 2am+. Tossed and turn couldnt fall asleep till close to 5am.

Go Sentosa is to take photos. Its either the not so strong lights in the morning, or the evening sunset.

First train at 7am. so at most photos into 8am+, then thats it.
But didnt go in the morning slot in the end. Not confident of the lighting plus the wake up time is about the time I fell asleep.

then come evening.
Called Sentosa twice to check on their weather status. Still drizzling there as of now.
I think its all wet, so dont think I wanna risk it ba.

Next chance, 28th March ba. :)

Its basically to spend some Me time.
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Spent the awake time last night addressing issues of the heart. Was thinking out loud, sieveing through the thoughts on my mind for the past weeks.
Realize that I've been very vulnarable.
Literally very open when it comes to matters of the heart.

So was just speaking to God, saying, "God, we've got to fill up the gap of man so that I can compartmentalize and put the box of man aside and then concentrate on you"

Came to that conclusion before I went into dreamland.

Woke up this morning and again, on the same issue.
Then the thought came. Perhaps its the prompting of the Holy Spirit ba.
If its really what I had it to be, Am I not putting man before God?

Whatever happened to
Seek Him first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all things shall be added onto you.
Him first, then man will come.

Reminds me of what the doctor said when I visited him on thursday.
Dont bother about the pills, overriding the body system *for my specific condition, he's not saying medication is not good*
Surrender it all to God, when its time, He will provide. Its anything too hard for God? not in God's plan?
I asked him choice then, free will. God gave us that. We're given the ability to pray. he replied then thats for you to go through understand and surrender back to Him again. To seek His will, not yours.
Its not about you and God. its about you in God as one. You in Him, Him in God, do you know how wonderful it is?

"Struggling between me and God. Learning about the relationship between me and God. That until I know its as one, not as two, me in Him and Him in God, then will I know how to live life, and life more abundantly."

Thats not so bad for a revelation that took over at least 3 weeks for me to understand.

Guess its all because of the busy-ness.

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda
She is one step closer to SOT 2010