Monday, July 16, 2007

dont understand

I dont understand...

had this friend, got hurt before, so closed himself up, put on a happy front. Refused to let people in to help.
So recently, we are expecting a friend's birthday. That Closed up friend of mine planned a Wah Candle Light Dinner surprise thing.

I dont know why, instantly I feel super turn off. (not that I need to be turned on)
But I dont understand, why would someone who is so closed up, do something that will open up a person's heart.

Its like not having the ability to, and yet try to be someone who is.

Just as another friend, who said was in darkness, and yet speak words of comfort to people around.

I dont understand. Am I weird or is this world, just so different, so unexpected, so in-comprehensive-able.

Dont one need to minister and address oneself first before entering into another's life?
Wont they feel that their actions and opinion be unbalance, affected and shifted by their past, or even their present that they choose to not address, choose to turn away from.

Who Am I?
Amanda (oh ya, thats my name)

2 comments:

Noel Ong (Ryuza) said...

Amanda, perhaps things might be puzzling for you when it comes to this aspect of thought.

Often, people who are in a sticky situation don't get to see what's going on in their lives, but they still do notice what's going on with other people's lives.

True, perhaps one should be normal or at least have no problems before he/she is able to reach out to help others, to address to certain issues that may need his/her help.

However, without being once involved or without being inside the similar situation, there isn't any experience to share with another, to help others.

Also, very often people who are closed up, in darkness for example, do not want people around them to be in the same predicament as them. If they notice their friends in darkness, they will lift them up, because they know that when they are down, their friends will lift them up too.

Humans are fallible. That's why we rely on each other. And for some who managed to find their paths, they can find their strengths via religion.

Hope my explanation can bring some light to your clouded vision.

Take care,
Noel

Amanda Val Ng said...

and so it was, the ministered one is being hurt by the one ministering simply because the minister's one problem cropped up. haiz...