Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Fear Not!

Was just listening to Christian City's Church CD, came upon the song Fear Not v2
WoH!

Blessed be the Lord my Rock
who trains my hand for war
my fingers for battle!


Take about warfare man!

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Mum

Was calling my mum at the factory the other day to ask about dinner, when I was put on hold.

While waiting, I heard the sounds that were in the background,
the machines at work, the heavy carts knocking against each other, the sound of the flame from the gas stove and the sound of the fan...
There and then I got reminded,
Ya ar... mummy's job is real tough, all the packets of nasi lemak she has to pack, the crates she has to carry and all the chili stains on her clothes.
Then come back home late at night all sticky and uncomfortable, with an empty stomach...
she is already 55 know...

As I walk on towards home, I pass by a gas cylinder van.
The driver was just closing his door.
I caught a whiff of the interior, it reminded me of my daddy toiling on his huge lorry truck in the roads...
Under the hot hot sun, going through the dealings with the people that he has to work with, the other drivers that does not follow the right routine...
It must have been real hard on him too.

That night I gave my mummy a shoulder massage. :)

On this Mother's day, what are you doing for your mum?

Would you...
take her out for a meal?

Would you...
pour her a cup of water?

I dont have a mummy that does big and great things that I can write about,
But I have a mummy who loves me and has brought me up to the best of her ability.




I Love You Mummy!!!

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Sunday, April 27, 2008

phone

DId I mention that I sent my phone for servicing recently?
Just to replace the white buttons



more like navigators.
See the dash bar and C button
that costs me $50.20...

then again, its better than nothing.

So ya... must have been a store contact numbers messed up situation...
missing so many numbers... even my elder sister one is missing...

so dont mind me if i ask who u are when u sms me k?

*mUaXkZ*

I know all my readers are very kind hearted one...

*praYs HarD*

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

update

Hello Peeps!

:D

its a sunday! and today is Dress Date day! :D
Dress Date = All Girls wear dress day :D

So Fun!

hmm... guess that certainly reminds me of having to be like a girl. being the sister in the kingdom of God.
Theres this book called Fight Like a Girl: The Power of Being a Woman - Lisa Bevere
Got to get that book and gain some new knowledge!
Hmm... should have bought it during the book sales the other time...

Oh, by right no dress to wear one, but all thanks to my sister who has very kindly lend me her dress.
Only manage to find one that I can squeeze in.
Oh man... its really too short caused much inconvi... esp being a on-stage choir member. :X

got to watch myself.
doubt there be another time that I'll wear such a short skirt to church... or ever wear a short skirt again :D

But it certainly feels good!
Purposely wear Black and White Shoe.
not black and white on the same feet. but one shoe black one shoe white,
Like This!


oki oki, i know I am vertically challenged as well... :D
According to a super cute sister...




Tadha! (the one on the left though i know the one on the right is really cute too)
:D
*back to topic*

the shoe is actually 8cm tall... *wOh* how did I balance? :D

Was just walking towards the Tampines MRT when a stranger stopped me and asked "did you purposely wear it like that? looks so cute!"
:D what an open and approachable lady she is!

and then choir people ask me, "Have you woken up yet?", "wore the wrong shoe?"

:D

it was an accidental tryout in school the other day. :D my colleague says it would look good for a casual look, and so I got it on. :D

kk,

Back to marking! tons and tons to clear! exam period need to return them for them to revise.

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Psalm



Woke up this morning with a phrase strongly impressed in my heart.

"Broken Heart, Contrite Spirit"

Psalm 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, A broken and a contrite heart-- These, O God, You will not despise.
Psalm 34:18
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit.

:)
its time to pray for broken heart and a contrite spirit.

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

update

:D

so paiseh!

kk, actually its funny that im awake at this kind of time, by right i should be unconscious by this kind of time.
but ya, decided to come on and blog bcos i dont wanna leave the previous post as the greeting post for my readers *I still want Rocher though* :D

anyway, came back from BS,
was speaking about being Paiseh...

its actually during the BS,
the brother was teaching us about the laws.
The Civil Law, Ceremonial Law and the Moral Law,

Civil Law was about the household stuff. for example, if the neighbor's donkey comes into my house, died within my boundary, should it be my neighbor's responsibility to get rid of the body or mine?

Ceremonial Law is about the ceremonies that is taking place, like offerings of animals and all that.

Moral Law talks about the 10 commandments.

He was asking, since we have gotten over the Civil Law and Ceremonial Law, why not move on from the Moral Law as well?

He got us to raise our thoughts.

So I mention "maybe because Jesus left us with Mat 6:24"
:D

so he asked, wats Mat 6:24
I replied "The commission" or is the wrong addresS?

:D

and true enough later on when me and some of my cell members were at the MRT station, we checked. :D

Mat 6:24
"No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. All of you cannot serve God and mammon."

HAHA!
I've really got the wrong address!

Thank God no one checked at that point of time, if not ar, all will roll on the floor laughing!
:D

its Mat 28:19-20

Go you therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: 20 Teaching them to observe all things whatever I have commanded you: and, see, I am with you always, even to the end of the world. Amen.

HaHa! Throw face throw face!

then again it is not wrong to say that Jesus left us with Mat 6:24.
Indeed we cant serve 2 masters, mammon is a tool. we are managers of it.

:D

Reminder to self, If its anything towards the end of Jesus's presence on earth, its all in the later part of the Gospel.
It wouldnt be as early as Chpt 6.

:D

Blunder Blunder Blunder!

*YaWnz*

will update my playlist to more current songs soon.

Like Maria Carey's and Rihana's.
Maybe not current, just catchy.

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Tots

Was just reviewing my conversations with many friends.

Realized that sometimes, speaking the truth in the hopes of helping them to improve may not be the best thing after all.

it might be better to not talk about anything concern personal development at all. Cos who likes to be corrected right?

Thats only if they asked.

If "Only friends that cares about you would correct you" is true, then looks like I've got to care less.

Felt so defeated. Tired and weary...

dont wanna care, dont wanna love anymore.

Love is such a courageous thing.

Guess at the end of the day, If I care, and yet the person took it on such an opposite manner, then guess its not worth it after all. Lets just drop and forget it.

Was just asking, why do I correct a person, who am I to do that? A good answer would have been because I care. I'm not selfish, I didnt want the person to go out there and be "cut" by other people.
well...
"It doesnt have to be me"
Maybe someone else who cares for that person as well will come along.

Maybe there just isnt a Maybe, and it has to be me.

For the first time I admit I am defeated in-terms of dealing with people.
:D

oki, must tell myself. Defeat is the stepping stone to victory,
perhaps an even better me.

-

Got to learn to not be a teacher outside of school.
Speak less.
Looking for a dramatic change.
Is there not a instant change formula?

Guess if there is, then we dont have to Take Up The Cross Daily and Neither would it have been written in the bible ba.

-

I am not a door mat.
I can say no even to myself.

-

Got reminded again, its not true that matured Christian does not need people to lay hand on, to get a touch from God through that manner. But rather, one can be ministered to during Quiet Time, other times with God.

-

my weekends leaving me soon.

-

Got to exercise more!
Got to take up tuition classes.
Need to save up for more events ahead!
Got to start fasting again!
-

I want to be more than me today.

I do not belong to stagnation - 28 Dec 2005

Anyone wanna buy me Rocher?

-

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Saturday, April 19, 2008

update

I'm saying bye to the past and hello to the future!

:D

I'm hooked on Dried Peach these days, dunno whether is it Peach or not though...

Anyway, was just talking to a friend, asking him whats not good about me.
Then come to realize, alot of what was being reflected is based on his personal preferences, personal opinon.

Hey Hey, guess thats how it really is like.
SO really, watch who is commenting before taking it in.

*pout*
lazy to blog. rest..................


*yaWnZ*

Looking forward to monday!!!
but val havent say meet where, what time...

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Friday, April 18, 2008

BIG!

Was just interacting with a friend when I got reminded.

We can run, we can hide. but we can never run away from problem that we have of inside.

If only we live a sugar-coated life.

Bought Murtabut - the indian roti prata with additional meat inside.

Oh so scary...




its tt big...
cost me $5
Mutton one.

theres at least 4 eggs and 7 dough inside...
value for money indeed.
but wOh, sure cant finish it.

:D

kk, tts all for now

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Sunday, April 13, 2008

mind

Get knowledge, Seek wisdom.

One enhances the mind, the other guides the way in dealing with people.

Be smart today, be smarter tomorrow.

dont let the day go by without learning something new.
A man who reflects each day makes his days easier to past by.

Using wisdom the wisely

James 1:5
If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that gives to all men liberally, and reproaches not; and it shall be given him.

Be Bless,
Love,
Amanda

P/S: missing dinner at Swenson, anyone keen on meeting up for dinner ?
SMS me! 94573107. those that have my new number use that then. :)

BF

Cleared my building fund!
Yey~!~!~!~!~!~!

Sure is a step of faith!
but then again

Phil 4:19
And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Those who trust in the Lord shall never be put to shame!

Well the lilies of the pond and the birds of the air sure look nice and sufficient on their own!

God is good and will be good!

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

update

Been hunt down these days to be question about being attached... hmm...
its funny how when my esteem is at its lowest that these qns popped.

short hair and ballooning is taking its toil on me.

Regardless,
this reminds me of an item that i was conversing with a friend.
speaking about how the requirements of SG girls these days are getting more and more difficult to achieve.

Oh well, I guess im one of those that has high requirements ba.
Established in career, family car, financial independence and spiritual maturity.

well, whats all the mention above if maturity in a person's thoughts and act is already lacking?

a guy who has lost his job but still am willing to seek still has hope,
a guy who has lost his job but loss all the interest to seek anymore, that is one man who is not worthy of devoting one's whole life to.

so pick not a person who has a good career, but pick one who has a sound mind. That can only be seen if you know the person well enough.

Seek not a Godly man, but seek one that is after God's heart.

and yes in case you are wondering i am looking forward to settling down and having my own family :)

-


When in doubt, delegate.
When in love, slow down.

-

Was in service today when I caught a thought.
The lost of people around us actually calls forth healing.
its interesting to me.
Cos healing is more of for people who are sick and all that,
but as of this case, its the emptiness thats caused by the absence of someone that requires the healing, the fulfillment.
thats why we are all human ba. The attention that was provided and received.
Having a hole in the heart caused by the absence of someone that requires healing.
especially if it is that someone that has established trust and relationship.

Perhaps thats the reason why when we step forth into a new relationship without first being healed from the wounds from the previous relationship; would caused the next relationship to be at disadvantage and tinted ba...
-

Suddenly had a deja vu the other day, how i was growling down at a child of mine... run away after school when I've specifically tied a ruffia string on his hand to remind him to stay back.
super blur in class, not being on task, and hes a healthy child and pretty able to do work...

it reminds me of how the previous friend treated me,
that time i walked away from that friend, not allowing that friend to send me to the bus stop, cos of the betrayal of trust. got called up on the phone, the anger, the harsh tone. the opening line "ooi".

it kind of reflect each other.
just as that friend is not in control and started raising voice,

i too cant control my child and i start raising my voice.

Sure reminds me to watch myself. The next time that im ready to raise my voice at a specific situation, i am basically out of control.

then again, regards that child. I cant help him if he doesnt want to help himself.

-

Thoughts aside,
I'm so gonna work my butts off in the time to come! :D

Yey!

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Thursday, April 10, 2008

num

:D


came online and I saw this




I wonder who is the 1000th viewer :D


:D

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

update

Hello hello~

hmm... im sure peeps are looking forward to me blogging some more meaty stuff :)

will do soon will do soon.

anyway, my members talked about the function "liquified" in photoshop.

well, just im not into editing photographs :)

looking thin in photographs not because the person really is thin...

now I know why I would admire certain people's photo
Editing is so easy these days.

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

nightmare

Had a dream last night,
kind of like a nightmare ba

teeth became all lose, easy to lift out,
end up remove what 5 or 6 of my teeth.

Usually this kind of nightmare,
I'll wake up and start binding the devil for my beauty rest,

but dunno why not really affected by the dream,
just continued on doing what I had to do, slept through and live the day as though it hadnt happen...

:)

So bored...

looking forward to 21st apr
looking forward to 2010

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Sunday, April 6, 2008

PP

Throws a pity party for myself~



*Yey!*

*WoHOoOOoOo*

*conFetti*

*Yah!*




*Pout*

avn

Ryuk

Just realize that hey,
the smartness isnt in the character itself, (refering to my previous entry)

The smartness is in the creator and author of the manga himself,
he created this story, he knows what it should be next, and so therefore L knows as well. :D


Hmm...


anyway,

another character caught me.
and mind u its not a good looking one...



He's the god of death, and yet he will question Light regards his action towards killing the innocent ( hmm... Light's a little tinted).
Was just enjoying the whole graphics :)
Ryuk



Its all in the gifts that God has decided to bless us with.

:)

shall keep a lookout for the toy and hang it somewhere at my workplace.

O_O

WHats the talent placed in you,
have you discovered it yet?

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

L

Just watched Death Note

So intrigue by the smartness of it...




Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Friday, April 4, 2008

in!

Was just having my dinner when I came across this guy,
wah nice muscle man,
then the words

"It takes maintenance"

true ar,

good figure dont just drop down from heaven like that. :D
Theres a need to go to gym and maintain...

Guess I've to go to gym soon...

anyway! Yey! My tickets have arrived.

Just realized its on thur and fri,
meaning most probably I've time to go for thur one but fri most prob not,
cos got cell meeting.

What am I talking about?
its the Planet Shakers + Tim Hughes worship session at Max Pavilion

:)

Anyone keen on Friday tickets?

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Ps 19

Psalm 19 (Amplified Bible)
Amplified Bible (AMP)

Psalm 19
To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David


1THE HEAVENS declare the glory of God; and the firmament shows and proclaims His handiwork.

2Day after day pours forth speech, and night after night shows forth knowledge.

3There is no speech nor spoken word [from the stars]; their voice is not heard.

4Yet their voice [in evidence] goes out through all the earth, their sayings to the end of the world. Of the heavens has God made a tent for the sun,

5Which is as a bridegroom coming out of his chamber; and it rejoices as a strong man to run his course.

6Its going forth is from the end of the heavens, and its circuit to the ends of it; and nothing [yes, no one] is hidden from the heat of it.

7The law of the Lord is perfect, restoring the [whole] person; the testimony of the Lord is sure, making wise the simple.

8The precepts of the Lord are right, rejoicing the heart; the commandment of the Lord is pure and bright, enlightening the eyes.

9The [reverent] fear of the Lord is clean, enduring forever; the ordinances of the Lord are true and righteous altogether.

10More to be desired are they than gold, even than much fine gold; they are sweeter also than honey and drippings from the honeycomb.

11Moreover, by them is Your servant warned (reminded, illuminated, and instructed); and in keeping them there is great reward.

12Who can discern his lapses and errors? Clear me from hidden [and unconscious] faults.

13Keep back Your servant also from presumptuous sins; let them not have dominion over me! Then shall I be blameless, and I shall be innocent and clear of great transgression.

14Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my [firm, impenetrable] Rock and my Redeemer.

-

What does this passage speak to you about?

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Easter

Hmmm Easter...

Last year's Easter I got the revelation of "It is finish"

Jesus cried out these words when He was at His last breath on the cross of calvary.
that is indeed how it was.

If we put our faith in Christ, truly all things are "finish"
Follow the ways of the Lord,
Pick up your own cross and uphold His righteous acts. Put and Obey His thoughts above yours and truly all the trials and difficulties are "finish"

As it has always been, His burden is easy, His yoke is light.
Its about the willingness to give up all (surrendering to Him) and really just no more strength to go on and fight things out your way.

"It is finished"

All battles have been won,
all difficulties have been conquered.

"It is finished"


This year, I took part in the Easter production by been part of the crowd, one of those that cried, reach out for Jesus while He was on His way to the hill in the drama.

It sure was a traumatic experience for me.
The breathing difficulty + the realness of the whole scenario.
How every step of the way He was mock and whipped.

"Pick up the cross you king!"
"Is this your savior?"

"Bu Yao cuo de ren bu shi ta!"
"Ta shi wu gu de!"
Translation: "no He is not the one guilty" "He is innocent"

Every knock on the nail caught my breath.

Was just commenting to my choir friend that it might get a little routine and lost its meaning with the need to cry for every service,

then he mention to me,
that may not necessary be the case,
everytime we experience this,
It could be Jesus dying for a very specific situation at that very point of time.
The financial difficulty
The seemly impossible to get over situation
The hard to kick habit that is not desirable.
The illness that we are suffering from.
The new strength we receive because of His death for us.

Then it all became very real to me.
That tomorrow just seem to be so much easier to pass,
No complains, no nothing. But just the joy, to know that Jesus had died and carried what I cant carry for me.

This whole process of moaning each time for Jesus in each service is as though us living our daily life, having to stand as a testimony for Jesus in the world every single day.

not that its an acting thing, but it all have to be from the very core of a person.
Because "out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks"
Out of what we have inside, it flows into our actions, consciously, unconsciously.

Whats the purpose of Jesus dying on the cross for you today?
This very same process renews itself everyday for your life,
Have you embraced it yet?

Not sure about yours, the year that I was saved, it depicted the story of the two thieves that was lifted on 2 other crosses with Jesus.
Indeed it was my season.

Click on the song "your savior" and listen to it ba :)
think that was in the year 2004.
Its actually entirely live, sang by Kelvin i think(the original singer of "Call Upon" )
so please pardon the little slipped in timing.

Perhaps the critics may say "Oh they are just a bunch of people seeking for hope and new strength to live tomorrow, to make it easier for them to live."
Well ya, thats very true actually, dont we all seek hope? In the times of need, dont we all pray and ask for miracle.
In as much as we as human being can do the best we can, dont we all look forward to the event that will happen even at the very second before? Is not the event not within our control still after doing all that we can?

He is one man who knows the desires of our heart, He didnt ask for much,
"Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all His righteousness and all things shall be added unto you"

Thats why we worship Him.

The privilege that only man has.

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

-

They shouted "crucify"
As He struggled on the road
Weight of the world, all the pain
The cross became His load
He was innocent
Yet accused and blamed
Sent to save a fallen world
To bear all our shame

They shouted "crucify"
As He climbed the lonely hill
Bearing the shame of the mocking crowd
While heaven and earth stood still
He was innocent
Yet accused and blamed
Sent to save a fallen world
To bear all our shame

This is your Savior, pure love of heaven
Sent to die on calvary to bear the sins of all
Rejected, cursed to die
Love silently endured
His blood poured out an offering
At the foot of the cross

They put a crown of thorns upon His bleeding head
Whipped Him as He struggled on
He uttered not a word
He was innocent
Yet accused and blamed
Sent to save a fallen world
To bear all our shame

For the broken hearted
For the poor, the weak
For the blind and searching
He shed His blood for you and me

-

smartER

was just busy at my seat completing my tasks,
when I got reminded of how my kids would react, how my kids are.

More often than not, These little kid would do things the way there are taught to do. Smart ways that is. because they have the ability to do the right things.

Today I want to challenge this thought.
WaH "challenge" lol

Lets be smartER today.
not just doing things the right way, the way we were brought up.
Like for example
Remember how we use to take pictures with those cameras that contains film rolls then send the roll to develop and get them printed from the photo studio?
now thats really a smart thing to do, how we've been brought up to be (rather than not knowing what to do at all, dunno how to take photo).

now that we have digital camera, we use digital camera to take photos, and so we send it to the photo studio to print.
thats smart as well cos its an integration of what we have now with the ideas that we have been taught.

can we be a little smartER and perhaps print it from home?
(yes I know, photo studio has better quality, this is just an illustration)

What im trying to say is, dont just integrate what we have.
Come afresh and be different!

There is so much ideas out there, whats in your hands might just be a start of something else!

They call me Ms Ng



Be Bless
Love,
Amanda

Status

Hello people!

hows everyone been?

sorry ar been really busy and tired, so didnt blog much neh~

Anyway, let me share something with you today,
its something I caught last week...

Whom would you rather spend time with?



Person 1 or Person 2?
the riding here refers to driving around.

I think most of us would prefer to go out with Person 2 right? :)

that pretty much is a reflection of how we should deal with people ba.
Its just the way we are I guess.

the need to be generous, the need to be willing to spend quality time, the ability to not grumble - complain.

Self-reflection, are people willing to share their time with you?
DO you make the time spend enjoyable?
do you dare to ask them?

lets complicate things a little bit...



Oh Oh...
How? now that Person 1 is already the husband/wife... do we still have a choice left?

Guess we have to really open up our eyes when we choose our spouse.
Then again, time changes people ba, perhaps then its about looking at the characteristics of a person, ability and willingness to receive and accept people's words and change to be a better person?

Hope this would be another reason for my reader to be a better person :)
Will you make a decision to be a good spouse today?
Like what my Pastor said, the best gift for our better half as a wedding gift is emotional stability.

Go think about whats emotional stability and whats within ba :)

not enough...



O_O
*gasps*

now hows that for some heart strings tugged.

Will you truly surrender and hang on to the Marriage vows?

Ya, of course ex-lovers can still be friends, but well :)

Stay close to Jesus and maintain an open heart.
Life is not about meeting all the wants that we have.
Life is also about the people around us.

Be Bless
Love,
Amanda