why?

Communication breakdown is an irritating thing.
Don't understand why some people just refuse to talk on the phone, but prefers to sms or msn, ends up jump into conclusion, and ruin a wonderful friendship...

hmm... think im too caught up with it...
kk, got to let it go.
I pray that the people in the situation is matured enough to not let it affect anything.

*yawnz*
tired... go sleep.

:D this is hilarious! can you imagine a rat running away with a Receipe book? :D
Its in the theaters. :D

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

why?

:)

realize that i've been trying to walk away from my own world recently.
dont know if it shows that I'm curious about how others lead their life,
or I'm just sick of my life.

*haiz*

kk, got to lift myself up.

I Love Me!

Its funny how things work.
Its suppose to be 1 guy for dating relationship, many guys for friendships.
But people prefer it to be many guys for relationship, 1 guy for friendship.
*dotz*

Why do people go back to their past when the are lost for a moment, or lost their hope for the future.
Why did it not be to search on for something new. Something Else to live for rather than what that has been disappointing in the past?

As a adolescence we cultivate the "body movement" skills
As we began to grow, we begin to cultivate intellect skills.

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

study?

Just had a chat with a friend from NIE on the phone.
He raised the idea of studing again while teaching.

Was very tempted to be step into the career path of a councilor.
So should i go ahead and study along that path?

Haha~

Be Bless,
Love,
Amanda

My Blog

My Blog

My blog's my mummy, not as in real mummy in any sense, just a comfort name.

Mummy...
I'm so tired and upset...
Its so unfair!

This sept Holiday, I really really want to go on a holiday.
Call me silly, but I think I really deserve a break after this first semester.
I know I am capable, but I dont think the kind of workload I am carrying is really how it is suppose to be.

Go with friends, Its difficult to co-ordinate dates.
Go alone, daddy dont allow.

Its so unfair!



I love me mummy... what can I do?

-

And then the logical mind will tell me these:
What's your problem. Will you die not going on a holiday?
What is fair if it is according to your standards.
Like secretly allowing ur tears to drop will help.

-

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

But God

Now I see why and now I see how.
Just happened to be reminded of me apologizing to a fellow colleague because of my attitude.
Had a flash back of what another colleague said to me when she was trying to get points back from me.

I saw just how it was. How important it is to be humble, letting ur words be few, and having the ability to apologize.
Not because someone has corrected you and it is expected of you to apologize,

But being different, having the ability to apologize, what would seem to be as something that pride would not allow.

-

CA Period now. Marking has driven me to the brim.
Exhibitions coming up.
Brownie Revel coming up.
all within this 2 weeks.

-

Made a decision to skip Brownie induction last saturday.
Was very motivated not to go for sunday service since I've attended the Saturday one.
But I know that is not how it is suppose to be. So I went.
Receiving and letting Love flow through me.
The way to break through to the next level is by forgiving and being good to the people you hated the most.
-

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
Ye though I walk through the valley of shadow of death, I will fear no evil. For you are with me, your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Fear not for I am with you.
And my Lord will meet all your needs according to glorious riches by Christ Jesus.
I am more than a Conquerer in Christ.
Because He who is in me is greater than he who is out there in the world.

Come to me you who are weary and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Learn from me, for my yoke is easy my burden is light.

But God!
-

There is a need to learn to work in and by the Spirit, Just as related by Kathryn Kuman and the author of a book - See Drawing Near by John Bevere.

Letting God going before me, moving according to His will.
-

Addressed myself last night, so Glad I did. :) God is good!
I'm a nice girl, maybe thats why.
I Love Me! :)
Looks like there are plenty of guys that will be like him, just got to learn to sit on it. :)
Amanda Val, Thats my name.

-


Hallelujah!

God is Good!

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

reflection

Was just watching tv
wah... so much reflection...

-
help even though she insist she didnt want.
weak though there is much strength.
tried all his might to protect her. - Thats falling in love.

The beauty of the simple-ness that comes with it.
Being drunk, not having to care about the consequences.

Him having the ability to, the smart-ness

first time encounter,
hence didnt know how to handle,
misdirected attention.

The struggle to know and handle the difference.

the tears that filled the eyes. the tears that slipped down the cheek accidently...
She was hurt again... by someone who least wanted to hurt her. Even deeper than ever before...
That very moment the eyes met... the feelings come rushing back, the tears comes swooning to the eyes.
-

:D

Dunno if it stirs something up in u
:D

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

blined

I am blinded...

its a crazy week ahead...

today finally did something that I normally wouldnt have done.
I skipped the Brownie induction program.
Needed that rest so much...

the best time to rest is before the need to rest...

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

why?

Just received a post from a photo studio... Suppose to be my Graduation photo one...



but... its not me lei...
so sad...
emailed them, hope and pray hard that they will someway somehow send me the photograph of me that was taken the other day.

it was just this morning when I received the call to began to grow the Fear of the Lord.
To learn more about drawing the line, Respecting God as God, and not treating Him as a friend, treating Him for granted...

Goodness...
Better start fasting...

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

focus

An hour ago, I was moving the tables and chairs in my classroom, moving cupboards around and all that in preparation for Pri 6 PSLE oral,

2 hours later I am in a meeting room marking my CA papers...

:D

my eyes are half open.
I am looking forward to tomorrow still.

Got to change my focus.

Because whatever that gets my attention gets me...

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

1am online

:) its almost 1am and I am online. :D
its been so long since this happened.

:) took a nap just now, wake up around 10+ almost 11,
It was my brother's birthday... *madness* cos i forgot about it like totally...
nvm, kind of like already know what he wants and what i'm getting him, so its a small issue after all.
Wanted to get him a PSP, but he prefers a HP... Hmm... see how la.

Did marking... from 11+ till now.
They call me a high-flyer, I call myself a mind-less worker.
reach school before sun-rise,
leave school almost at sun-set.
7th week into teaching and i'm holding positions tt beginning teachers doesnt hold...

then again, thats very me la huh, esp when I am focused.
Job focuse now, so if you hear rumor that i'm in a relationship or something, just open up your eyes. :D
I may speak as though I am, talking about emotions and all that, but it doesnt mean it is ya? :) this is my blog, its where i address myself.

Was just talking to a friend, and a very interesting truth came forth.
It certainly is "Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks"
My intention was not to teach, but to deal with people.
:D

Its as though that the marking has taken away the joy of dealing with the kids.

Am so not happy with my Knowledge of English. :/
shall work on it.

busy busy week ahead, like it has always been.

But the good news is! Joyce Meyer is Coming!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! Its time for discipleship again! :D
So bless!

Am starting my Red Pen journey again, this time on NLT version.
Its a good feeling actually. Use to refer to the original KJV text to highlight the words of Christ in Red, now I'm drawing them out on my own.
Rivers of living water, understanding the mind of Christ. I pray for revelations.
God is Good~


Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

Noah

Was just watching this trailer



when I got reminded of this trailer



:D

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

new friend~

Just made a new friend in school, its a really good experience, not in the sense of establishing friendship and all that.
But rather challenged me emotionally.

It might sound funny to you,
but really, I dont want to be in any group, any clique, any dependency for the matter.

It just provides room for politics, for un-necessary gossip to come about.

So because of that, naturally a void is formed, (yup, was talking abt myself in the prev entry)
so then came this friend, (tt provided individual attention) :/

so happy la, struggle in the rooms of emotions...
But well,
Guess its good that way.
Gave me room to grow the inner self, understand the need and how to be strong even in the presence of individual attention.
The need to know how to maneuver my feelings and emotion,
When to address myself.

:D

thanks dude! your the best! just when I need this lesson.
You reminded me to be me. :D

God is good!

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

why?

why...
why...

:D

kk, my audience are lost. :D

Basically i'm wondering.
Why, why would it be that there are so many people who likes to play mind games just because they have the ability to.

What ever happen to being sincere?
So what if at the end of the day you achieve what you wanted?

knew so many friends that studied Psychology these days...

and

Whats up with people and masturbation.

Why do people focuse on the act but rather than look underneath and realize that there is a hidden problem beneath it that caused that act as a form of release...

*wonders*

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

namecards

...
received 2 name cards today...
Why teacher's dont have namecard de...

:/

*pouT*

I want to eat Ben n Jerry Ice-Cream~

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

Void

Victim of the Void...



Was being thrown into a victim of the void situation recently...
wats victim of the void?

Take for example.

Guy A went overseas to Study, leaving Girl A behind in the homeland.
Guy A didnt really have time to contact Girl A while he is away.

Girl A feels real lonely and down at times, all the while missing Guy A, couldnt reach him. This caused a void to be in Girl A's heart.

Then came along a school friend Guy B.
Now that Guy A is not around, Girl A turns to Guy B to share her feelings with.

Every single time she feels down and out, she would turn to Guy B.
Soon, the attention that Guy B provides fills the void in the Girl's heart.

Before anyone realizes, Girl A and Guy B was together.

I've seen so many relationship happens because of situation as such. As in having a void to fill.
Was really chemistry, the presence and connection of each other or was it just gratitude and good timing?

What keeps a relationship going?

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

someone.

:)

in staff room now...
its funny how I'm missing someone's attention.

Guess I really missed the times when I would chat with people,
and the most important part is, someone who knows who I am talking about,
able to relate and explain and talk about the problem...

Nevermind, guess I'm glad that the person's not here too. :)
cos if the person's here, the attention would gladly feed the hunger and grew into an even bigger appetite.

Depend not on man... for man will fail.

Hallelujah!

Oh ya, did I mention that I met my kid's mom?

the child thats on the row call for public canning.
Just when I am dressed down going to the hawker near my house to get food...
Goodness Gracious Me!

Be Bless!
Love,
Amanda

yesterday

God is good!



Was just looking at another friend's blog... wah... she has that song!
not that its any super great song or limited edition or something. Cos anything online will no longer by authentically limited edition.

just happened to be a song not yet sung as a worship or praise song and by our worship leader belle...

I am so jealous!

but oh well, we dont always get what we want do we?
:D
-

Was just last night I realize I lost my verse 3 of Ps 23
"He restores my soul;
He leads me on the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake"

I memorized Ps 23 long time ago.
hadnt been speaking it recently so verse 3 slipped off my mind.
:D

Was just reading it from the bible when "He restores my soul" jump up unto me. :)
Never really did look at it in a apply it to life way.

Has your soul been restored?
the times when you screamed out for a fresh touch from heaven, and He graced the event?
Thats restore my soul.

I'm so thankful for whats happening.

My work stole me away from the Lord for about 5 weeks. Literally.
so physically tired, and spiritually weak.

when my wake-up call came, *piak* across the face, then I realize, I've been feeding my physical body with rest, but what about my spirit man? have I been restored yet?
:)

I love the Lord, and I'm really grateful for His longsuffering, still standing by though I've been neglecting Him for almost 5 weeks, more than a month!

Oh ya ar, it shows, one can be going to church attends cellgroup, be presented as "involved" though the heart is a total stranger.

God is good!

*I'm coming back to the heart of worship, when its all about you... its about you Jesus*

Is your heart cold today?

-

Went for choir pract last night. Was just chatting with a friend. Then I realize.
In the process of dating,
A young girl would more or less loss her ability to talk about anything else besides her relationship with the guy. :D In all conversations, there will be a little hint of him. :D

A young man, *though he's a man* will have a major part of his expenditure spend on the girl. and sometimes even pushing off his needs.

:D
well, that's wat I call a man that is madly in-love. :D

Was just observing, and I thought I saw a reflection of myself.
The very loud body language, talk alot, didnt think through the things I say.

I still talk alot, I still dont think twice about what I say sometimes, but God is good. My current job is the perfect job to help me clear it all off. :D

But guess what, being a chatterbox can be irritating sometimes.

Just like how one of my pupils who always have something to say, nonconstructive comments. Am I like that? do I have alot of un-necessary comments too? O_O
God to watch myself.

That draws me to the point.
Is it enough just to look cute? That itself is attractive to a guy?

Reminds me of what people would say.

"Looks cute la huh, but once she open her mouth... thats it"
:D

then again there are many sides to a person isn't there?

I pray that I'll be more and more like the Father each day. :)

A consecrated heart, mind and mouth.

Be Bless!
Love,
Amanda

P/s: I'm going to Sentosa later!!!! Hope its not going to be squeezing with the foreign workers since today is a public holiday. :)

Be-Beautiful

one of my darling's going for canning the next schooling day...

dunno how to handle... is it the way i am is wrong, or is it just the child is different.

why is it so. I'm really puzzled.

my pupils say I am not strict...

where should I be? do i want to be nice (of course fierce when I have to) or do i want to be strict? both gets work done, just one doesnt address emotional need and the other, the discipline problem...

is it wrong to have an open and friendly deposit with my kids?
Do i have to really be always strict?

:)

In due season the answer will come...

was just reading up on Mat 5.

After showing them the miracles and healing they followed Jesus, over the mountain and the sea...

and then Jesus began to teach them...

hmm... i wonder,
certainly its about Having compassion on them that He would teach...
I think they are coming to Jesus because they are keen on knowing how He did these miracles.

So Jesus taught them how to be a Christian, not a formula, but rather, how to establish a relationship with God.

Lo and Behold, He started off with... the Beattitudes,
:D
and then Salt and Light...
and then the teachings that reflects the 10 Commandments.

it reminds me, what is a relationship with God if u have the 10 Commandments if you dont have the beautiful attitudes?

Isnt it just like the Pharisees?

Blessed are the poor in spirit, For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, For they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, For they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, For they shall be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, For they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, For they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, For they shall be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

WWJD?

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

X'mas

was just reading the bible, went into the Christmas story,



Was just contemplating on Joseph's reaction.
One moment The Angel of the Lord sent him to this place,
and the next moment to another, and yet again another place. and then Lo and Behold just when he was on his way there, he heard news, really bad news. So he had to change his course...

to me its really interesting...

how is it that someone could just be so confident to be led at the nose.
Just literally going everywhere by faith.

What happen at the times when he is hearing nothing from God?

Then again, if you wife is pregnant in a supernatural way, and much was presented to you at the point of his birth. and was mute till the point that u agree to His name as appointed, I think you would have that kind of Faith too.

Draws me back to the thought.
Good things comes after much hardship.

Just as how they were rejected by the inns and hostels, and had to put up at a barn. Then come the time when the wise man and rich rulers came with their gold frankincense and myrhh.

:)

* Away in a manger no crib for a bed the Little Lord Jesus lay down His sweet head, the stars in sky look down where he lay, the little Lord Jesus asleep on the hay... *

Im so looking forward to Christmas, Carolling!

*Long time ago in Bethlehem, so the Holy bible say, Mary's boy child Jesus Christ was born on Christmas day~
Hark now hear the Angel sing, and listen to what they say, and man will live for evermore, because of Christmas.*

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

:D

I look forward to truly put up a guy's photo on my msn. :D

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

4thAug

Went out to meet some friends for his pre-birthday celebration. He came for mine, so tot it be nice for me to come too.

and thats the lucky guy



Went for Festival of Praise...
The queue was long long long...


no end to it...


and I am still so far away...

and u aint see nothing yet.

Today's msg was good,

Accept the name of yourself before walking in Reality.
"I dont feel forgiveness", who ask you to feel? Read the Bible!
Slow down and Worship the Lord, Cos Isa 64:4 says "who acts for the one who waits for Him"

Be Bless~
Love,
Amanda

rest

Was on the cab down to choir practise yesterday, when the taxi driver talk about his experiences with dealing with people, which lead him to be a taxi driver.

His command of English was quite good, so I was wondering y be a cab driver.

Thats when he being to shared. He said, theres so many different kinds of people around.

Even just when you thought you have a good friend, or someone worth your time and attention, he or she could just disappoint you entirely.

Its as though A always share heart matters with B,
One day, A feels really down, and B too is down. But A didnt know that B was down.

A turns to B, B tells A that he/she is not ready to talk.
and BaMb, B has no one to turn to le...

thats the beauty of life ba, look around you, do friends really stay.
If they do, is it necessary after all to be entirely dependent on them and allow your emotions to be suayed by them?

Can the blind lead the blind?
-

Went down to school today to finish up some cases.
I asked myself why didnt I rested at home,
and I answered, because I want to make use of the time to finish up the work,
then it came onto me.
Why Rush?
you have the same 24hrs as others, others workload might be even more than yours, they dont push, why do you push?

Guess its not so smart for me to return to work today afterall.

Got to learn to take care of myself even more.

the best time to rest is before needing to rest.

so the time is now.

:D

thanks for spending time~
Be Bless!
Love,
Amanda

Snow White

If you set your mind on something, go do it. cos at the end of the day, its not about pleasing other people around you, its about pleasing the person you see in the mirror reflection.

*pls place a mirror in-front of you*

Are you happy with yourself?

Be Blessed~
Love,
Amanda

1.15pm

:) its 1.15pm in the afternoon,
if Amanda is blogging at this kind of time, it means something is wrong...

Ms Ng is on...


MC for 2 days
after 6weeks, I got my first MC...

Doctor says its because of lack of sleep, immune system low, so the virus gained the upper hand and stole some voice from my voicebox.

To certain extend its good for me also la huh.
Cos the only reason why I will miss school (so far) is if I loss my voice.
A slight hint of it, I will siam already. cos my voice is too precious for me as a choir member, as a teacher.
So its time to sleep sleep sleep and eat fruits.

Oh and ya, as per requested, I put up a tag board.

So much for being on MC, I'm still going back to school later to prepare for a couple of lessons. and going down to another school for competition briefing...

I still love my job~
Love the interaction I have with the kids...

*mUaCkZ*

thanks for coming by~
Love,
Amanda