Sorry peeps, its been so long since i've updated my blog. :D
been super busy lately...
I tot taking an extra $5 from my parents wallet is alot (if I am in Pri 4) seems like that is not the case anymore. :D
anyway, Photo updates~ The very pair of keys that got me crying in-front of my Level Manager and my Councilor...
The very tangible support from my colleague thanks Babe! The kids were voting for their favorite teacher to perform on Mid-Autumn Festival, money goes to charity. I was not even in the Top 10, but guess what the results was at the end? No. 1 :D
So many of my friends are going into NS or are in NS... :D NS... National Service or what people will say, No Sleep. :D Makes a Man out of a Boy. *I Love Man, not boys* :D
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ANYWAY
People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered. Love them anyway! If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Do good anyway! If you are successful, you will win false friends and enemies. Succeed anyway! The good you do will be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway! Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable. Be honest and frank anyway! What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway! People really need help but may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway! Give the world the best you have and you’ll get kicked in the teeth. Give the world the best you’ve got anyway!
Written by: Mother Teresa
the very kids that got me to lose my voice everyday, the ones that pushed me to my brim, yet the ones that are my very pride and joy. Love them anyway. :) Truly the ones that got me to learn to seek and love their little characters, look into their eyes, their reaction and see a mature person in the near future. Everyone has their flaws, but can you see and choose to focuse on something good that is in them? The kids dont deserve to be treated the way their parents might have treated you, would you choose to love them even more?
I love them, though I feel like biting some of them sometimes. :D 4 Love of 2007
Today I saw a face that gave me the assurance that all of my kids will grow up to be matured adults. that made me smile.
Was attending a Beginning Teacher's workshop today, saw this short extract about a song.
"A bird does not sing because it has the answer; it sings because it has a song. Each of us must discover our own song to have the clarity of purpose. Love it by exercising care; Sing it with faith and faithfully to build character and Learn to sing it with kindered spirit to build community, for we are here to serve and inspire"
For the first time, singing a song has a meaning of its own. not just to make music. But rather letting what we are living for come out of us from within. Living out the purpose of what we are doing. Singing a song with our lives, the air we breath and the language our body speak.
Was walking down the shopping mall when I see plenty of couples holding hands walking down the malls. That reminds me of my time. Walking down the streets, which were two small for more than a couple most of the time.
That got me thinking, whats so nice about holding hands? then I realize, having been walking alone for so long, when the new thing of having another hand to hold come about would it be surprising that it would be such a nice thing?
Think really having been alone, one would look forward to having another to share life and time with. Having someone to share one's life with. No wonder I was having so much difficulty letting go. :D
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It is not good for man to be alone. So if u are ready go get a partner ya? Its a beautiful thing to get attached.
cos I saw so many things that made me smile. God is good.
I saw an ex-classmate that didnt notice me, that made me smile.
I saw a little kid carrying mummy's big big bag, that made me smile.
I saw a gentleman being surprised by my presence, that made me smile.
I saw the young gentlemen standing in the shop working hard to earn the good money, that made me smile.
I saw the simplicity in the busy-ness of life, that made me smile.
What made you smile today?
Hallelujah, thank You Lord for this day, this day of new discovery, this day of faith. Of knowing so much is ahead, of knowing you are here. Thank you God that I'm protected, that Your favor is upon me. Thank You God that I'm able to smile. :) Thank You God for everything that is ahead, that is to come. May Your grace and Your strength lead me through this time. Truly God, open up my eyes that I may see. Make me more and more like you. Thank You God, In Jesus's Name. Amen.
Was just listening to a song, Got reminded of the rainbow. it says "I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow"
Does a rainbow have an end? Nope, just as God gave the rainbow as a covenant after the flood (see Gen 9:14 onwards), so shall the rainbow never end.
Is beauty ever overlook? Yes, every moment everyday, what is beautiful to others may not be beautiful to you. Beauty is the presentation of whats in the darkest end, the lowest of the low, and yet victories in its place.
Does the wind ever stop blowing? No it never, because even the softest breeze can blow the dust away.
Just as your words could break a heart, it could heal a wound.
What is our greatest enemy? The adversities we face? no, its ourself, our fear, and our guilt. Us, the enemy that is of within. Fear, that didnt allow you to do things. Guilt that hinders you to forgive yourself to move on.
Reminds me of what I wrote when I was in Secondary school? Life is like a bed of rose. The up times when one sees a full bloom rose, the young bud thats waiting for the right season, the hope that keeps one going.
The down times when one confronts a prick on the rose. the sharp ends that calls forth pain. And yet, after facing the prick, and walking through it all, you figure out it's worth it afterall.
These ups and downs they come and they go. It is not that bad afterall if you choose to see the Rose that is ahead. If only you will choose. Choose up instead of down. Positive instead of Negative. See the Victories in the Defeat. Achievements in the Failure. Love in the Pain.
If you want the rainbow, learn to live through the rain.
Ho ho ho ho Today I went to school without doing any marking, anything related to work. :D All I did was re-arrange my stuff and set up the cosy corner i mention. :D
Sorry ar, forgot to take photo of before, can only show u after. :) So now I walk towards my table looking at...
:D
to the front:
and to the side:
Does anything in the picture look familiar? :D oki I dont think you know, Try again
:D Remember that Ikea shelf I mention in my previous entry?
I've use it creatively to go Level Up! :D no choice la, things many many, cubicle small small.
Introducing.... My Cosy Corner!!! :D
the bear on the right is my 21st Birthday Gift from my cellgroup. The bear's name is Spencer~! come come close up close up He will play a very impt role as He'll be my creature comfort. :D
In the middle is a photo album, a small collection of some of the pictures of the kids to push myself further. :) This job is more than just dealing with kids. Thats like only half the time? :) So in mad times like yesterday, when I'm beating myself up for being so hardworking. I'll look at these kids that drove me up the wall sometimes and tel myself its worth it. Don't quit, Don't throw in the towel. "In the dictionary of Discipleship, there is no such thing as retreat."
Even as one of the pics I used in the album Not that any one of the kids are freak. I am a freak. and I need love *goldfish eyes* :D
oki oki, just kidding.
and yes to the left, thats the alarm clock. :D 4.30pm must ask myself to pack up and go.
maybe bcos I'm a newbie. for the past 3 months, Most of the time, I'm like the one who reaches real early, and leave real late. clocking 60hrs per week? :D
so got to go! :D
after I'm done with school, I went over to City Hall. Its like 3 months since I went? its interesting how I would unplug and listen to the sound of the rushing crowd along citylink.
My 1st destination is Marche at Suntec! Love the Ham and Cheese Crepes I saw this when I arrived
Its close! No more Marche! no more moo moo cow at the entrance... so sad! Suntec Revamp!
The space at the exit of Marche became this fountain thing. *to cry or not to cry?* Sian1/2
Went over to Carrefour to get lunch, had 2 sushi and a curry puff from Old Chang Kee.
and of course, its never complete without my ... Pure Chocolate! Went over to Millenium Walk to fetch it.
Went around the Suntec and Marina Square to look for Shirt. Man's Shirt that is. Hmm... I just realize, Most formal shirt are with strips. Horizontal or Vertical. The difference? The distance between each strip. :D
I was at Marina Square before going over to get the drink. Was approaching the atrium when I heard some road show thing going on, walk over, and guess what I saw! *stun* *power!*
:D Its a magazine promo. One of their Item 4U2C
Original file too big, so no choice got to shrink end up low quality.
Its interesting how this is portrayed Whenever I hear pole dance I'll think of those sleekly move and little clothings. This was the same, except its in a brighter environment. It feels alot more like Gymnastic than anything to do with sex appeal. The idea of it. They just love being inverted, doing their thing with a pole. The costume are still as tight, except with lower budget I guess. :X no offense intended. :D
Was just walking out when I see this kid so excited running towards something, then I turn and saw him climbing
Its Mr Golden Arch. :D Reminds me of the movie I watched on Thursday evening. "Super Size Me" O_O within 30 days of eating mac, the liver was really badly damaged. But what draws people to eating Mac?
1. Nostalgic feelings. - Kids grow up with frequent visits to Mac with their parents. The Playground, the parent's attention. So whenever they see the Arch, the brain will automatically call out for more. 2. Its a form of addiction. The research personnel could be feeling really depression one moment. The moment after he goes for Mac, he goes back up.
In-fact theres one part that talks about a school that houses delinquents, their lunch is served multi-colored meaning all the veg and healthy stuff. Surprisingly u dont think that they are delinquents when u look at them.
Oh and one more thing. Because of that special diet. His sex life became WORTHLESS. (the girlfriend was part of the show)
Dont wanna say too much. Go see it for yourself
the harm that took place because of the 30 days diet, took him at least 8months to be restore to original health.
Goodness Gracious Me. I am so cutting down on 1. Coke 2. Deep-Fried Food 3. Processed Food
And now, finally on to my final destination! (for the day I mean)
can you guess it?
The Esplanade! :D I meant, the River by the Esplanade. :D
The Open space Amphitheater is taken down know... *original site* dont know why... *shrug* oh ya, and the Bakerzinn at One Fullerton is off too. Its now Starbucks.
Come come, let me share some pics
Next stop... Guess where did I went?
I'm on the Travellator... It use to be a Post Office?
Yup, Fullerton Hotel.
:) and that was my last stop b4 going over to the Raffles MRT Station and back on my way home.
Glad things are looking up~ for a friend that i really care about.
anyway, was beating myself up in school this morning. Felt really miserable being so hardworking. Wanted so much to go for a break, but guess what, Monday to Friday I went to school. Markings, Filings, Committee work. *pout* dont even have the chance to find alone time... Was complaining to a friend, he ask me to look back at the original motivation and the benefits of the job. :D
At the moment, im facing work. Not people. :D And its marking ridiculous mistake that shows disinterest in work...
anyway, so I shall set up my cosy corner! Put my Spencer there, Some of the gifts, and a mini photo-album. So much so much. :D Oh and I set an alarm clock. :D 4.30pm! Time to go home! :D
Bought this from Ikea. 6kg, cant believe I carry it around. :D
That alone time thing reminds me of a conversation that night when I went out to chill with 3 of my fellow colleagues. all together 4 of us.
3 of us takes the train, the other takes a bus. the one that took a bus arrived early, manage to get him to pick me up before going over to the place that we were suppose to meet. Maybe its the elements, or its in the horoscope, or its just that I crave some by-the-water time. We met by the river, under the far away streetlights. That moment was so nice, so stolen away.
At the end of the meetup, the 3 of us went forth to the MRT station, the other accompanied us a distance and then turn back to go towards the direction of his bus-stop.
Was about to arrive home when I messaged that friend, checking for arrival. End up, that friend was having by-the-water time, still at where we went. So me being me poke the friend. Say selfish la, bo jio la. Then came the message. "Nobody say you cannot go what. No one's stopping you" Right at that moment, it felt like a tight slap in the face.
I felt so miserable. so I replied "Yah you are right, no one says i cant go, no one's stopping me" So sad...
nvm... 2ml after setting up my cosy corner in my "cubicle" I shall go forth to Marche, then go take my walk down Singapore River. Must take Photo! :D
and to think I'm skipping my CG's Sentosa outing. :D nvm 2ml dont walk too much, must take care of my ankle...
And this was the Brownie Ice-Cream I had the night I sprain my ankle... except instead of cookies and cream, I had Sticky chewy Chocolate. :D
Didnt know that Moving Rubber has so many color. :D
Had dinner with Ryuza Kor kor~ :D Its great time catching up. :D
Think I didnt get to share this, but ya, I met this guy whom I really enjoy my time with. its the kind of connection thats really special I feel.
its just that simple, special as in not the kind romance and all that, but rather just simple, the talk, the walk, the presence, the sincere, the occasional tease and bully and yet still the concern the gentleman, the willingness to care for me.
so much so that I would willingly say yes if the guy were to pop the question to go get a HDB flat.
But let me add that it is impossible. Its a chance that tested my will to the max.
When was the last time u were tested in your will?
Was just reviewing some of the situations I was facing when I realize how I was dealing with some relationship.
Felt so sad for some friends. Its like a case of "Wo Ba ni dang bao, ni ba wo dang chao" "I treat you like a precious gem, u treat me like a piece of grass"
looks like I got to start being nice to some people and step away from some others le.
I apologize if i treated u unwell ya? :) Please know that I didnt do it intentionally.
Guess its the ready availability that causes such situation ba.
Realized that it is fun to be going out with guy friends that you know you wont start a relationship with, or for the matter wont have a result with.
I like the openness in conversations, the opportunity to dig out the romantic ways the person will behave. That is especially even more fun when u know it be weird to ask someone else unless it has already been pre-decided.
Then again, when u begin to be so open, u would want to be someone, something more. Thats when its not possible. and the occasion calls for, it feels even more sadden.
But well, thats life, if u can be special to all that u are open with, then special isnt tt special anymore.
Just seen the sinsei... 5 DAYS Ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Because I am extremely image conscious so hor...
BANDAGE for 5 DAYS!!!! THE AGONY!!!!
Pls now its like Holidays!
*CRY* *can u see the river*
I need soul repair...
*CRY*
*sOb* *SoB*
I feel so crippled lousy and useless! *CrY* TaO YeN!!!
was reading Chicken Soup for The Soul when I stumbled upon this, "I sank into a chair next to him. From the kitchen came the clatter of pots and pans, and the smells of ham, fried chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy. Wilson opened his eyes and immediately searched for mine, as if to confirm that he hadnt left me yet. I finally admitted it. My son was dying."
that to me was a passage that describes a flood of emotions in split seconds.
then again, its at least 3 months since it happen. Kind of anticipated ba. Its funny isnt it, anticipated yet did nothing to prevent it. Guess its kind of like wat ever will happen will happen.
Was just thinking, how I react to my injuries, is that an indication as to how strong my inner strength is?
Just happen to be hearing from a friend about the situation he/she is facing, thats when I realize, truly inner strength isnt measured by reaction towards injuries, but it is measured by our reaction towards a situation that could otherwise be avoided. How do you react when things didnt go exactly the way you want it to be?
What didnt break you will make u stronger. Its horrible because you feel it is horrible. Since u know that it is horrible, dont keep reminding urself of it being horrible. Heard of Self-Fulfilling Prophesy?
3 months into the job and this is my first Teacher's day. First bonded job that I've picked up... lots of thoughts and queries.
anyway, let me talked about the more light hearted stuff since I'm more motivated to rest now.
Received plenty of gift, but tot of sharing 2 of the most interesting ones. Both came from my Pri 3 science class.
This's from my child that has cerebral palsy. what's interesting about it? :) Look at the picture, or click to get it enlarge
Didn't put up the front pic as his name is on the front. Maybe it's just me, but I feel that he has plenty to say, just couldnt put it into words so decided to draw lines. as what TV has shown.
and another who's really weak in language... The form teacher said "this is the best he could manage" His card really touched me. :)
The girl from my form class, whom I scolded the most amongst all girls, got me a gift from Precious Moments. :D
and of course Teacher's day is not without performance... The pretty people that I manage to take pictures of
From my form class,
Hip-Hop Dancers -
The Sun Set and Teacher's day dinner came in.
My level teachers,
People I'm a little more involved with besides my level.
Dinner ends around 11.30, went to Breweks, 2 left then we went over to TCC, spent alot of time walking around, finally settled down at Clinic
Quite a cool place, People sit on Wheelchairs and Hospital Bed look-alike. Cool place to hangout.
Left at 3am cos the place is closing, Reached home at 4am, slept at 5am and woke up the next day around 12pm, :D Its at least 3 months since I last did that.
